Well it has been some time since my last blog. I have been so busy and tired. I am now a manager at my job. It’s more responsibility, more hard work and more hours. Fifteen dollars an hour with forty five to fifty hours a week is nice but it gets a little crazy sometimes. Seems like there are more small things things that i got to deal with. Sometimes I don’t want to be a manager because of all the things I have to deal with but at the same time I know it is something I can do even though it seems hard. Part of my problem is that I have a low self esteem and low confidence. There are times where I feel like I’m messing up to much. The other managers let me know what I need to work on so I can be better and make sure I’m doing things right. There have been so many times where I have wanted to quit and give up because of the drama and mess I have to deal with. I guess with any job you have to deal with drama. Lately work seems to be getting worse. There is so much favoritism, harassment, Hours getting screwed, crew people getting in trouble due to management, etc. Another big problem is lack of communication. People are quitting left and right because of everything getting so bad. There are things that people do which could get them fired and plus the store could be shut down due to certain things. It is what it is since nothing is being done about it. Especially after something has been said. Right now I am in the process of looking for another job because I can’t deal with this one anymore. My mental and emotional health are not worth suffering over this. A few people have told me that I need to stick it out and keep doing this job but they don’t know all the details of what is going on. I had lesser problems while I was in Iraq and we were getting shot at by bombs. This is by far the only job I have had where I’ve had this much crap to deal with and I have been working since I was thirteen. Now I am forty one. One thing that would help is if the hiring manager would hire more people who are older and more responsible. The area that we live in doesn’t have that many opportunities. Seems like everything is fast food. Not exactly the kind of job that I want to build a career in. Right now my dream job would be working from home and writing / blogging. Not to mention doing crafts and selling them. That’s what I really want to do. It would allow me to get more time with my little boy, make my own hours and be my own boss. I just need the resources. I’m just not happy where I am at right now and I need to find something that’s gonna provide what I need in the long run. So, let me get out there and figure out how and where to start my next journey.